At the moment I feel like I hate life..
I hate school, and just hate life. The only thing that is keeping me going is when I log into my computer and I see all my countdown of exciting things still to come this year...
6 days; 5 Seconds of Summer Concert
115 days; l 1D3D movie (yes, I am that lame that I have a countdown for that)
116 days; School Formal (sometime before this there should be a finish school one, but I actually don't know the date for that)
131 days; One Direction Concert
140 days HSC Starts (not so much a good thing thou)
161 days; HSC Finished!!!!!!!!!!!!!
166 days; Olly Murs Concert which I won tickets to :)
181 days; Schoolies!
and 197 Days till I'M 18 BITCHES!!!
and this time next year I should be in Italy, on atleast somewhere in Europe, which I am super super excited for!!! So I really just want these next couple of months to hurry up, I want to go have fun and live my life.
Till next time
xx
Monday, May 27, 2013
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
Parent, teacher Student Fight night!!
So today was my school parent, teacher night (well parent,teacher, student night), and I personally hate this night. The teachers keep in all this stuff about you, which they won't tell you in class, and just let it all out in front of your parents.
As I may have said before I'm in year 12 at the moment, which mean this night are 'important', well so they say. But It is always the same thing and I always end up in tears, but I'm pretty sure tonight was the worst.
Lets go through each teacher, now I can't remember alot of what was said but here is the gist of what I can remember...
English.. Well English has never been my best subject and I mean never. My spelling always horrible, punctuation never right, and i hate reading. But this interview was actually pretty good, I think It has to do alot with the teacher I have, I think he may actually be the best english teacher I've had. He went on about how I was a great student, how I always take part in class discussions and have a lot of good ideas. But never to be confident in my work and ability, and also that I have to write more. Which is why I really want to write more blog posts.
Food tech/hospitality.. ( just pointing out they aren't the same subject for the most part they are really different but I just have the same teacher so I'm putting them together)
Now for those who read that and was like "oh, what easy bludge subjects" I want to punch you in the face, because trust me they aren't. Both have a lot of content and lots of work. I actually do really well in both these subjects and would actually say that Food Tech is my best subject :)
But the problem? I'm lazy and I don't do homework. And boy did I get an earful about that. She (my teacher) went on about how I can be a Band 6 student (the highest band you can get in the HSC) if I just tried harder and believed in myself. The problem is, if I lived my life the way this teacher would want me to, I would not to anything but school, study, homework, and of course sleeping and eating. She has even said to read my notes while waiting for the bus in the morning. Umm, Miss, I'm still half a sleep by then. And friends or any social connection NO!! She even wants me to work through Lunch time. She is an amazing and passionate teacher but stresses me out and doesn't see that putting a ton of pressure on me wont make me work more, unfortunately it actually just makes me shut down. Not good I know.
And it is safe to say that I did start to cry a little :/
Religion..
Because I go to a catholic school it is compulsory to do religion, now don't get all "eww, religion, brainwash" or whatever random hate against religion you have. We don't even learn about our religion we learn about other religions and just the facts, history and traditions. Surprisingly, I actually do alright at Religion and have improved a lot, this teacher once again was great. Complements, but also telling what I need to hear, such as how I have to still work that little bit harder, and I'd do great. Once again the issue of my writing skill and ability came up, but in a nice way with a lot of support behind it. Over all it was a good meeting and that teacher is awesome.
Drama.. (once again not as bludge as you'd think)
Oh where to begin... So my feelings for drama are always mixed, they can go up and down in one lesson. I could hate being there at the start of the lesson and never want to leave by the end. And the same with my teachers, I'd love one and hate the other, then It will swap around, or I'll love them both, or even hate them both. In drama I love prac, i'm able to just sort of let go, but theory annoys me, I actually hate it. And Essay writing makes me want to hit my head repeatedly against a brick wall!! In my last exam.. lets just say it was the worst exam of my life and the mark can not be mentioned.
(sorry, quick note: I actually don't know what to write for this I have so many mixed feeling and at the moment sadness and anger are taking over the most so I can't really think that clear, so really sorry if I'm not making much sense)
My teachers are always on my back about being more confident, not just in this class but always, but my drama teachers seem to make the biggest deal out of my lack of confidence when it comes to writing, and I almost always end up in tears... And that is what happened tonight. One thing that annoys me, yet I also enjoy, is the life lesson my end up learning in drama instead of actual drama work, which was what was going on tonight.
Ohkays, I'm sorry I actually don't even know what to write for drama, I just have to leave it here.
PDHPE:
My teacher was away so I didn't have to speak to her, so yeah.
Afterward I had a bit of a cry *cough* a lot *cough* and went to hug one of my friends. Her Mum is actually a teacher at my school, and is amazing. She just calmed me down, and told me she was always there if I needed to talk to someone at school. Which actually made me feel a lot better.
So what I am taking from this...
1. I NEED to do my homework
2. I have to practice my writing skills... ( I think writing a blog counts)
3. Remember I only have 167 days till my last exam
4. I can do this!! Believe in myself!!
Till next time xx
PS If you actually read all this you are amazing, :D
As I may have said before I'm in year 12 at the moment, which mean this night are 'important', well so they say. But It is always the same thing and I always end up in tears, but I'm pretty sure tonight was the worst.
Lets go through each teacher, now I can't remember alot of what was said but here is the gist of what I can remember...
English.. Well English has never been my best subject and I mean never. My spelling always horrible, punctuation never right, and i hate reading. But this interview was actually pretty good, I think It has to do alot with the teacher I have, I think he may actually be the best english teacher I've had. He went on about how I was a great student, how I always take part in class discussions and have a lot of good ideas. But never to be confident in my work and ability, and also that I have to write more. Which is why I really want to write more blog posts.
Food tech/hospitality.. ( just pointing out they aren't the same subject for the most part they are really different but I just have the same teacher so I'm putting them together)
Now for those who read that and was like "oh, what easy bludge subjects" I want to punch you in the face, because trust me they aren't. Both have a lot of content and lots of work. I actually do really well in both these subjects and would actually say that Food Tech is my best subject :)
But the problem? I'm lazy and I don't do homework. And boy did I get an earful about that. She (my teacher) went on about how I can be a Band 6 student (the highest band you can get in the HSC) if I just tried harder and believed in myself. The problem is, if I lived my life the way this teacher would want me to, I would not to anything but school, study, homework, and of course sleeping and eating. She has even said to read my notes while waiting for the bus in the morning. Umm, Miss, I'm still half a sleep by then. And friends or any social connection NO!! She even wants me to work through Lunch time. She is an amazing and passionate teacher but stresses me out and doesn't see that putting a ton of pressure on me wont make me work more, unfortunately it actually just makes me shut down. Not good I know.
And it is safe to say that I did start to cry a little :/
Religion..
Because I go to a catholic school it is compulsory to do religion, now don't get all "eww, religion, brainwash" or whatever random hate against religion you have. We don't even learn about our religion we learn about other religions and just the facts, history and traditions. Surprisingly, I actually do alright at Religion and have improved a lot, this teacher once again was great. Complements, but also telling what I need to hear, such as how I have to still work that little bit harder, and I'd do great. Once again the issue of my writing skill and ability came up, but in a nice way with a lot of support behind it. Over all it was a good meeting and that teacher is awesome.
Drama.. (once again not as bludge as you'd think)
Oh where to begin... So my feelings for drama are always mixed, they can go up and down in one lesson. I could hate being there at the start of the lesson and never want to leave by the end. And the same with my teachers, I'd love one and hate the other, then It will swap around, or I'll love them both, or even hate them both. In drama I love prac, i'm able to just sort of let go, but theory annoys me, I actually hate it. And Essay writing makes me want to hit my head repeatedly against a brick wall!! In my last exam.. lets just say it was the worst exam of my life and the mark can not be mentioned.
(sorry, quick note: I actually don't know what to write for this I have so many mixed feeling and at the moment sadness and anger are taking over the most so I can't really think that clear, so really sorry if I'm not making much sense)
My teachers are always on my back about being more confident, not just in this class but always, but my drama teachers seem to make the biggest deal out of my lack of confidence when it comes to writing, and I almost always end up in tears... And that is what happened tonight. One thing that annoys me, yet I also enjoy, is the life lesson my end up learning in drama instead of actual drama work, which was what was going on tonight.
Ohkays, I'm sorry I actually don't even know what to write for drama, I just have to leave it here.
PDHPE:
My teacher was away so I didn't have to speak to her, so yeah.
Afterward I had a bit of a cry *cough* a lot *cough* and went to hug one of my friends. Her Mum is actually a teacher at my school, and is amazing. She just calmed me down, and told me she was always there if I needed to talk to someone at school. Which actually made me feel a lot better.
So what I am taking from this...
1. I NEED to do my homework
2. I have to practice my writing skills... ( I think writing a blog counts)
3. Remember I only have 167 days till my last exam
4. I can do this!! Believe in myself!!
Till next time xx
PS If you actually read all this you are amazing, :D
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
:(
Even though I don't think anybody is actually reading this, I still like writing my blog.
but because holidays are over, and I am back to school I don't really have that much time. :(
But that is what I really want to change, i want to commit myself to writing and posting one blog post a week. I don't even know what to write about.
I have decided to take this self-mission, which means that even if I can't think of anything interesting to write I will think of something, sit down and write...
Till next time
xx
but because holidays are over, and I am back to school I don't really have that much time. :(
But that is what I really want to change, i want to commit myself to writing and posting one blog post a week. I don't even know what to write about.
I have decided to take this self-mission, which means that even if I can't think of anything interesting to write I will think of something, sit down and write...
Till next time
xx
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